“If I do not want what you want, please try not to tell me my want is wrong
Or if I believe other than you, at least pause before you correct my view
Or if my emotion is less than yours, or more, given the same circumstances,
try not to ask me to feel more strongly or weakly
Or if I act, or fail to act, in the manner of your design, let me be
I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me
That will come only when you are willing to give up changing me into a copy of you”
Zedd ft. Ryan Tedder
Lost at Sea
I know you’ve been hurting for awhile due to the change in dynamic with our “family” but I want you to know: IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!
Relationships between adults can be complicated. Human beings experience different events in their life that change how they understand things and what they believe in. Sometimes, because of these differences, one human to another can clash. It doesn’t necessarily mean one person is doing something bad to the other but what’s considered “bad” or “good” differs with everyone.
I want you to know that I was NEVER mad at you nor did you do anything to offend me. You have always been like a baby brother to me and it will never change. My only regret is that I could not be there for you during a time where confusing changes are happening in your life. Jer feels the same way. We both miss driving you to school, fixing your breakfast in the morning, playing games and watching movies with you, especially “Family Time” activities. Watching you grow up has been the highlight of my life since the girl who I once raised has now grown into a beautiful young lady (although my role as an older sister is far from over).
My parting advice for you is this: YOU ARE NOT YOUR ENVIRONMENT! Don’t ever let the negativity around you stop you from pursuing happiness and having dreams. You are the “master builder” of your life. Choose wisely so you may live life without regrets and bad consequences. You can do better in life no matter how long it takes. I promise you, you will get there.
One day, I hope you finally discover this letter and realize how much your brother and I truly love you even if we’re not physically there.
Kara and Jer<3